I got homecoming queen. People voted me, either because they like me or because they knew of me.
I was a little shocked, I wanted Shelby to win.
At the dance, a girl came up to me and mentioned how the cheerleaders had told her a meaner form of "why would you vote for kirby"
its weird because they all are real nice to me.. to my face i guess.
I just dont understand why people do that..
they probably didnt mean what they said
I feel weird about winning, simply because I dont know how I feel about wearing a crown on my head and saying "HEY LOOK AT ME! I WON!"
Now I feel like people will have some sort of negative image of me like "Oh well she just thinks she is just so special now doesnt she?"
Can people just learn to not judge so negatively? It hurts my feelings.
I have S A T in the morning.. yuck.
And I guess about the last blog post? I am just sorry so many friends base friendship on smoking. I hate that I would need to smoke to be considered COOL TO THE MAX. That that is the major factor that will extend me from cool to AMAZINGLY awesome cool...
I am just really sorry...
And another thing. I wish people would give me a real chance at being an equal. I watched the VP debates last night and those presidents and vice presidents featured on television? They are supposedly the most important and influential people in the world.. But I am confident that If i ran into them tomorrow, I could have a conversation with them and not feel intimidated.
I figure If I can feel that way about people who are supposedly the most important in the world, then why are people so afraid to get to know me?
Yes I am outspoken, involved... everywhere.. but what does that mean? It means I have alot of interests. I LOVE LEARNING and EXPERIENCING. That means I am open minded and ready to take in whatever it is anyone wants to throw at me.. So will people please just throw soemthing? something positive perhaps? nothing negative please.. that I can do nothing with but use to sum you up.
Just make sure you dont sum me up until AFTER you have talked to me. It really is unfair. I want to meet people who will interest me. Why do people think that does not include them?
Alot of people dont come out of movies. Alot of people would rather be real than fake. Let me learn. Let me experience. Let me be humble. Let me be kind. Let me be real.
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I know exactly what you're saying, it's just weird because everyone I know loves you. I don't think I've ever met someone who has said anything bad about you. Before this blog I saw you as a smart, sweet, fun-to-be-around girl.. and with the blog it's all that plus wisdom and a vulnerability that in a sense makes you seem strong to me. I hope that makes sense. I suppose that if you say there are people who are labeling you negativeley, then there are.. but I'm sure once they really got to know you they'd change their minds. So I hope they get to know you.
And congratulations on winning, I was hoping it would be you or Shelby.
I happen to have a very good understanding of your labels testimony. You say you wanted Shelby to win homecoming queen. I actually had the chance to talk to Shelby about this very issue. She said being on it 4 years was enough for her, and in a way wanted someone else to have that opportunity. I think you and all of the girls on court were worthy enough of that title. I actually think with that group of girls, it was the hardest vote Ive ever had to make. You for example are a smart girl, one of the top in the class, very mature, sophisticated yet goofy. Anyone would like the presence of you. Your admired by your peers kirby. As were all the girls. Dont doubt yourself. The people who may question as to why you got it, they dont know you. Dont you think if anyone else got it other than the person THEY voted for they would wonder why and how the person won? Congrats kirby. You are, like all the other girls worthy of your title as homecoming queen. This will simply be an amazing memory to share with other later on life.
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